So in response to my last post where I mentioned I was a
little tired of all the running around I do, a number of correspondents got in
touch to say that this was all entirely my fault. I accept this a hundred
percent, I am mostly busy because I make myself busy, and there are some
conscious decisions that I could make (if I were brave enough) that would slow
me down. The major one of course, and the route taken by at least one of these
people, would be to turn my back on the stress of the rat race and go do
something entirely different. Work, for better or worse, is mostly the root cause of all the running
around. Not only because of the time it takes up during the day, but also because
of all the opportunities it subsequently gives me to fill up my time with. Natch.
I had the opportunity before or course, and whilst I didn’t
spurn it, perhaps I didn’t make the most of it. I had a lovely time though and
will always remember quite how nice it was living a simpler existence, albeit
still in London. Long summer days, still quiet mornings, a sense of calm
despite small children.
Fundamentally I like to be busy, but I think the point I was
trying to make was that it would be nice if sometimes, just sometimes, that
wasn’t the default state. Bob made an interesting point on life continuing to
speed by, but that people slow down, and I suspect his many years of experience
;-) are hitting the nail on the head here. I am getting older and there is no
denying it. I am still trying to run around as if I were 21, but that the
inescapable truth of it is that I’m a few years past that now and basically more tired.
To be clear, I am not past it, whatever ‘it’ is, far from it, but perhaps I
need to recognise that I have limits, and that those limits are coming in a
bit. And that rather than increase
the amount of things I do, I need to drop a few of them. That is the difficult
part as I have a great many interests, none of which I really want to give up
but some of which I may need to change.
So really this is another post about ageing, adapting to it,
and how it annoys me that I even have to. But I have started in a small way, and I’m
feeling sort of positive about it. This is because I was forced to buy a new
camera bag, which is always a happy event. Camera bags are a topic for endless
discussion because there is no such thing as a perfect camera bag. There are
however many imperfect camera bags,
another one of which is now in my cupboard! This one has wheels…..
Yes wheels. This is what I mean about ageing and it annoying
me. I mean what camera bag has wheels? To be clear there is no hint of tartan,
I have not yet reached that stage, but it certainly
isn’t as manly and youthful as the backpack that it replaces. The sad truth is
that neither am I, and after my recent trip to Arizona I realised I could not
cope with the weight of my bag for an extended period of time. It contained a fair amount of stuff it has to
be said, due to my pig-headed inability to choose between pure birding and pure
bird photography and insisting on doing both. Hence a large lens, a large
scope, two cameras, a few other lenses, a tripod for the scope, a monopod for
the lens, chargers – you get the picture. The weight? 23kgs and there was barely a thing in it that I didn't use. There is no compromise possible in my mind on trips like this where I have
multiple aims, but after lugging it around for a week I realised I can’t do it
again, or rather I would prefer not to. Hence the new old
man’s bag. I have high hopes for it, and it doesn’t actually hold as much stuff
so not only does it roll gloriously across airports and along pavements, but it
will be lighter too. This is a bag for easy trips, worry ye not though as for hardcore bird photography trips I
have a smaller bag that my poor wizened frame can still bear.
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Whilst on the topic of ageing, last night Mrs L and I met up
with our university buddies at our traditional meeting spot, which is an
old-school public house in London. A classic old boozer actually, utterly timeless,
whilst those who frequent it gradually become more decrepit. Last night the
starting topic of conversation was gout, which is entirely appropriate for our
demographic. In a way this is entirely fitting, we have been going to this pub
for years and gout is thus the natural conclusion. Not my gout I hasten to add, you would have definitely heard about it by now! We recalled how we had been
sat perhaps at the very same table talking about buying houses and mortgage
rates. Over the years the subjects have varied, through engagements and marriages,
jobs, toddlers, children, school places, catchment areas. And now in a depressing
yet totally expected progression we’re onto our ailments. Actually a couple of
us are still talking about engagements and marriages, but they’ve held out long
enough that they might get to do the ‘in sickness and in health’ part
simultaneously! And I suppose if we all remain in London for the foreseeable future, it’s
probably the place we’ll end up in talking about death too. Nobody said that
last night but I wonder if we were thinking it? Or maybe it was just me, bags
with wheels prompting morbid thoughts well before their time.
